Sabrina
In Her Words
What did you feel before we started?
Before we started the whole experience, I felt nervous and excited, I didn't know what to expect, but it still felt right. And right before the actual shoot, I felt anxiety rising up, like a sense of unease and restlessness. I sat with that feeling for a moment, letting it be there and holding it. Being in nature certainly helped, and being around other women who were also there for the experience was comforting too. But what I really needed to do was move my body and let my body speak, let all of that energy move through me.
So I simply did the only thing I knew how to do, which was to get up and start moving—letting my body dance and move and speak in its own language. And that freed up a lot of that tension and energy.
What was happening in your life when you chose to join the Seen Wildly gathering?
When I joined the shoot, I was in a place of deep, deep inner healing—physically, mentally, emotionally—and I had been for years. But I had reached a point when I just allowed everything to happen, no longer striving for health or a perfected state, but simply allowing myself to be completely "broken", allowing my suffering, being unwell, "unfixed", "unhealed".
I had just been through a couple of years of chronic pain, followed by a cancer diagnosis. I had surgery and treatment, and I was recovering from that, as well as from some very old traumas that were rising—and are still rising—to the surface now.
So I was in the middle of a deep human mess, just sitting and allowing myself to be in the midst of it all, letting everything catch up with me, processing as well as simply being. It felt like a deep embrace and inner surrender, and at the same time a huge inner and outer chaos — the last few years had really shown themselves, and I felt ugly, totally out of control, and quite honestly lost, so not usually the time for me to be in front of a camera, or to even connect with others. I had a very strong desire to hide it all.
As I let the energy move and allowed myself to be unfiltered, it freed something up that eventually allowed me to feel safe enough to express some deep, deep anger and rage that I hadn’t let myself feel or express before.
I felt safe during the shoot. I felt seen, and I felt held by Bec, by the environment, by nature, by myself. I felt free to express whatever needed or wanted to come through and out of me. Like a sense of ease and freedom, and that was a huge shift from how I was feeling before. Huge.
What shifted for you during the experience?
During the experience, my body started to relax, and I started to relax too. I began to feel more comfortable and at ease. Bec started shooting while I was dancing and moving my body, which felt very natural to me. And although I was still a little cautious at first, after a while I just started to play and have fun.
I felt like I didn’t need to perform anymore or be anything other than what was here in me, in myself, and in my body. So I let myself experience and feel all of the emotions that were underneath that anxiety and rigidity. I let myself laugh. I let myself dance. I let myself be curious—even anxious and tense and afraid. I was already that, and I didn’t want to hide.
I think they are the best photos I’ve ever had of myself. I love myself in them. I love seeing them. I love seeing me in them. I love how almost primal they are—primal in the environment, in nature, in how she captured me, and in how I was showing myself.
I’m in awe of the photos, of myself, of Bec, and of the entire experience. And I know that’s a memory that will stay with me forever. I’m so happy to have those photos to show for it—to show that there is more in me than just a kind face. And that it’s okay, that it is in fact beautiful.”
How did you feel seeing the final images?
I felt amazed at how real and raw they were, and how well they captured me, my experience, and what I was feeling. And it was such a relief to finally have images of me that weren’t just pretend, that weren’t just a happy or polite smile, or a mask hiding how I was really feeling. Something that captured me—real, raw, and human.
“And I love the photos. I absolutely love them.”
“It allowed me to feel a deep, deep sense of freedom and relief and lightness that I hadn't felt before.”
I remember leaving the shoot feeling like I was walking on clouds. I literally couldn't stop smiling. I felt so free and liberated and joyous and at ease, something that I hadn't experienced in a long time. There was so much lightness within me, a connecting to myself and a confidence that it's okay to be me, it's okay to express myself wildly in front of others, all of me, and be seen (and heard!) in that, to be witnessed and captured. It was a truly magical experience, life-changing for me. I've never experienced anything like that before. And I'm not just saying that. I truly, truly mean that. I'm forever grateful!
I would recommend this to anyone who feels called to be themselves right here, right now, in this moment. No pretence, no bullshit, no mask. And to anyone who is sick and tired of being something that they’re not, or of being perceived in a certain way— someone who wants to challenge themselves and experience themselves in a safe environment.
Because that is something that Bec truly makes happen in her approach. So if you feel open, if you feel curious about yourself and about a new experience, then I think this is for you. It’s not just about the photos at the end—it is about the whole experience.
Be Seen Wildly
This can happen 1:1, or as part of something you’re already creating, like a retreat.
I also work with private groups for things like birthdays or more intimate gatherings.
I move around, so it’s worth checking where I am at the moment. If you have something in mind elsewhere, you can still reach out and we can see what’s possible.